welcoming me to the new place. alright, its all settled and done. im on my own now. no more him, no more sleeping around his stuff, no more his face in the morning.
i should be happy for this shouldn't i? it makes it easier for me to move on, but turns out, its the opposite way. i hate it.
i feel weak, i feel tired, i feel like i don't know where i'm going, i know, this is not going to be like this forever, but right now, thats just how it feels.
i miss him, i miss us, i miss the old me when i was with him. i was like the happiest person, always smiling, always happy no matter what happen.
i just smile whenever im with him.
and now, look at me, all sad and gloomy, and i hate the mask im wearing now. i hate pretending that i am fine, because im not!
but tell me, what can i do to change this? i can do nothing. i won't change his mind. nobody will ever change someone's mind unless they want to. i've done all i can. im sure i did. does it change the situation? no.
i don't know how long its going to last? i dont know when will i finally moving on..
no promises, but the only thing that i can do is enjoying the pain and let my tears falls down
no denying, no more pretending...
i believe time will heal.
but lord knows how i love that guy, how im still longing for him.
and i have to get use to this now. i should be over you. and enjoying my empty space.
sooner or later everything will be ok, yes?
well, i hope so.. :)
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